My blog has kind of devolved into nothing but baby pictures & happy talk. Which is nice but kind of boring, i know. It's not that there is nothing else in my head, it's just that i don't have the energy necessary at this time to write about it.
So here's a synopsis of some current drama & a question. My mother has been speaking to me of late, even back to the point of emailing or calling every day (after not speaking to me for most of my pregnancy with the twins, because she was so angry at me for getting pregnant again). But then, a few weeks ago i told her my father & his wife would come to visit. She was incensed that the wife would see the babies before she (my mother) would. Well, it is not as if my mother isn't invited here -- but she will not come, because in addition to being 'fed up' and 'disappointed' with me, she has decided that dh is an asshole. Long story. So, she will not come, and i wasn't really planning on traveling with two newborns, so she will not see the babies. Which would be sad, except she was just so rude and awful for so many months about their very existence that i don't really care.
However, in an effort to, well, make an effort, i decided i would take A & the babies & go visit her. Yes, it is a 7-hour drive, probably a *little* longer with kiddos who want to eat every two hours. Yes, it means leaving C with dh because i can't handle them *all*. Yes, i have no actual desire to go. But i am also tired of hearing 'you never come to see me, i don't mean anything to you, i am the last dog on the stick' or whatever it is that she says whenever she is in that mood. And the boys are well-behaved, it will not be that hard, i can do it. So i suggested to her that we come visit, for a few days (3-4, really, not long). And she agreed and gave me dates that would work for her -- next sunday, to be exact. We were supposed to go next sunday.
Ok, today she called & told me that i am disinvited, no discussion, this is firm, i cannot go...because it is 'too hard to do with babies'. Right. She is being noble, sacrificing her needs for mine. Except that on schedule for the next holiday it will be right back to 'everybody gets to see you but me, you never come here, even that bitch got to see the babies and i didn't, i am the last dog, blah blah'. (bear in mind that we are always disinvited for the holidays, which she spends alone.)
It's hard to know when to stop with the details, i mean say the word 'holidays' and i am tempted to launch into the story of the hot water heater....oy.
ANYway, the question (if you got this far reading this nonsense) is, should i go anyway or not? The last time i went to her house when i had been disinvited, i sat in her driveway for 2 hours arguing with her on my cell phone, until my battery died. And then i turned the car around and drove 3 hours back to where i had been. But i was by myself that time, no kids. I do think she would let me in the house, if i had kids with me. But i am still not sure i want to do it. She is very stubborn and unpleasant (though i think she would behave in front of A), and i don't know that it is worth it.
